Tonight I sat alone in my bath tub...neck and back aching from a long day with my four sweet ones... played my Kari Jobe Pandora station...and met with Jesus.
He met me tonight, again. He told me He loved me. I believed Him. And through my tears of belief I was changed.
There was a ripping though. At one point I said out loud to my friends, my loved ones...
"I'm sorry." It almost felt like I was breaking up with someone for the One I truly love.
"I'm sorry, " I said..."but I love Him so much more."
I've already told you in my people pleaser post, about a desire I have to make people happy...pleased with me.
When Jesus came near to me tonight, He reminded me of how much He loves His church. And how much He loves me. In order for this relationship to go the way He designed us to be...I needed to let go. Of everyone I loved. And love Him...completely.
So I did that. There will be choices I make that may not make sense to people I love. But if they trust Jesus, they will be at peace with the things He calls me and my family to in this next season of radical obedience.
In the stillness of the morning, when I spend time with the One I love...I know that He is good, and because I know He loves His Bride, those I love that choose Him will know His goodness too.
Jesus, you're more than a friend. And your goodness, kindness and mercy are forever...I choose You. I trust You...and I love You...
Love this post, Danice. Making tough choices - the ones we know God is calling us to make - can be so hard when those around us don't understand. May the Lord's peace be with you as He leads you to make your choices.
Blessings to you.
His glory not my happiness. The way to joy and peace in Him. I know a bit of this journey. He is faithful. Look up, dear Danice!